I Hated My Labia

Up until I was about 26 I still hated my vulva. I thought it was ugly and that no one would ever find it pretty or sexy. I loathed it so intensely that I wanted a labiaplasty. I wanted to chop my flaps off, to get rid of my dangly labia minora. 

Having constant repetitive negative thoughts about your body is so damaging to your self-confidence, self-esteem and ultimately your self-worth. I would often have distressing intrusive urges to get a pair of scissors and cut my flaps off.

I have always been very confident sexually for the most part, but there was always this lingering thought in the back of my head: “no one will ever find your pussy sexy.” Logically I knew that this wasn’t fact; I’d had sex with so many people at this point and only a small percentage of them actually commented on the appearance of my vulva. And they were obviously into it, the sex was good and they were turned on.

But my brain has always liked to cling onto the negative things. That’s a PTSD brain. That’s an ADHD and Autistic brain. Our childhoods, upbringings and neurotypes do come into play here. They come into play in everything aspect of our life. If we don’t look at our childhood and upbringing when we’re healing any negative believes about ourselves, how can we truly heal? How can we truly get to the root, re-wire and reprogram? We can’t. We might get a quick fix. But the belief will likely creep back. 

I’ve been obsessed with psychology and learning about the brain since I can remember. I’ve been seeing a psychologist for 8 years and took psychology electives during my dietetics degree. I would get better marks in my psych electives than my nutrition ones sometimes. I’ve learnt so much about myself but also about how others brains work over the years and I constantly apply this knowledge to my work.

In my online program; the Outie Sanctuary, I bring all of these elements into your healing journey. We will look at your childhood, your thought patterns and your belief systems. We will get to the root of why you are hating such a beautiful part of your body. 

The Outie Sanctuary has all bases covered, you’re in excellent, experienced hands. Click here to learn more about the program.